Match point. Never in my life have i had so many disagreements with my 'self'; what i think is not what i used to think, what i want is not what i used to want, what i beleive is not the same anymore... My desires are against some reasons, against even with other passions, my feelings are in oposition to my thoughts, my thoughts are contraries to my beleives ... and so on...
I am in the border, in the boundaries of my life. Now i see things and life so different than before, a new horizon is shown to me. I would say i am in the match point, which in tennis is the point that if won would enable the scorer or the scorer's side to win the match.
The time has arrived, now i started to wonder what i want for my life, what do i like, what do i want to do in some years, in the future.
Moreover, I always thought thinking about future it was a waste of time, because new things appeared to me, which i did not plan at all, and good things just happened... like divine will. It was perfect for me to let the life conduce or lead me, but now it is not enough.
I was told that people appear in life for an specific reason, even if the persons stays 10 minutes, such ten minutes were done for something, for us to learn somethig or grow as a persons.
I've met new people which have given to me new things to learn, i've read new ideas what have changed my point of view towards life, and all this forced me to reconsider my life, to reorganize my feelings and thoughts and to stablish myself in a different perspective...
I've got loads to think and do, but i will not worry if i can. I just will 'try' with my new point of view. if does not work, does not matter. Let's see where does the ball will fall.